This week has started off as a week of mixed emotions. Excitement over Matthew's 1st birthday and tears over the memories of the past year. I remember last year at this time and the scare of going into labor and never knowing if Matthew was going to make it through the first few days of life or the first surgery. There are no words to describe the feelings we experienced during those days. The love I had from the moment I saw him but my mind kept telling me not to get too attached. The day I handed him over to surgery and never knowing if I would ever hold him again and then seeing him after surgery. He didn't look like the little boy I left in the hallway. He was three times as big (due to the swelling), his chest was wide open and he had so much equipment attached to him that you could hardly move around his room. Look how far we have come. That little boy changed my life in so many ways and all for the better. He has been worth every tear and every long night. He fought so hard just to breathe and now he crawls all over as if nothing is wrong. WHAT A MIRACLE! I love waking up to him screaming for me to come get him, I then know we have one more day to cherish and Lord willing many more days and years.
He was all cuddly and giving lots of kisses this morning. He is such a lover. His mommy needs him as much as he needs me!! I truly feel blessed.
July in Review
12 years ago
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Happy 1st Birthday Matthew!! I was reading your Top 10-did it ever bring back memories of Julia's 6wks in the NICU! I had to walk those halls back and forth 6times a day-no trolley at that time! I am soo happy to see good news and pictures of your healthly little boy. He's such a cutie! People always told me that God would never give us more then we could handle-at times I swore he had me confused with a patient mother-LOL! Congrads parents you have made it through-WOOHOO!
Take Care,
Angela
Jen's Friend
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